The Broad's World

Happy September! Tomorrow the hubster comes home. Can’t wait. I have nothing to important to say. I will say having no “mommy” friends is starting to wear on me.

Sonshine is sleeping right now. We went to stay overnight with his great gma last night. It was fun but made me super tired. I missed America’s Got talent last night since I was outta town, but we have it DVR’d so it’s all good.

Once the kid wakes up I think I’m gonna go in the livingroom and watch cartoons with him, try and convince him to eat. He’s been snacking today and doesn’t want to eat. But his pedi told me that if he was hungry he WOULD eat, and with his energy level he’s not deprived.

I feel kinda blah lately. Hopefully this feeling passes.

Today I had a nice relaxing day with my son, we did some playing, lots of talking, and shared a nap then some butter noodles. Whenever we have noodles The sonshine claims we own a resteraunt called “Pasta Planet”.

The hubster called tonite from Chicago. It was good to hear his voice I had sort of a freak out over reaction last night to being alone, so I decided next week we might stay with him Gma in Illinois over night one night. Still Debating.

I’ve really amped up my Melanie Broadsworldblog facebook page, I’m gonna start using that as a place to do my reviews and giveaways and this blog just to talk about anything non beauty related, just kind of a place to get it all out.

I’m going to bed early tonite. 10=11 at the latest, because the kid and I have a dr appt tomorrow. Oh and the hubby gets back into town for the weekend and that will be nice.

Oh and if you want to be friends with this blog via facebook or twitter my facebook name is Melanie Broadsworldblog and my twitter name is 2broadscast.

My siblings, not all of them mind you made me a TOTAL basketcase yesterday. I’m hoping to get back into blogging SOON. I know I always say that, but things have changed. I’m pretty much on my own except the weekends when my hubby is home from working out of town. My life is not boring anymore, I have TOO much to do everyday now. Change is hard…but good. That being said, there is a pizza in the oven that needs to be taken out and eaten by myself and my sonshine Yumm Hope your Wednesday is FANTASTIC.

Melanie

Today since the hubster is in Chicago, we are gonna listen to music all day, unless a load of laundry needs to be switched in and out or folded. Or we have to eat. I hope Friday the 13th is lucky!

Melanie
PS I might blog more later today but I have laundry to attend to right now.

Hubby’s at work. Kid is sleeping. I’ve applied for jobs. Facebook status is updated.

Goals for today:
Clean
Workout
Go to Schnucks/Call them first to see if my perscriptions are ready
talk to Jess
talk to Lyndon
dishes
music
dance with my son
be positive ALLL day

So is it just me or did Will Ferrell say Fuck on National TV in ths video?

Will Ferrell to Doogie from AMT

Hey!

I don’t have any pictures for this blog lately. My mind is on three of the closest people in my life right now. My husband because his is at a lawyer’s office right now, wish him LUCK! My cousin because her SOON to be ex hubby is a complete lying (insert rude word of your choice here), and my Best Friend because I haven’t heard from her and I know that the last time I had she was going thru something in life that I can’t even IMAGINE, I hope that since I haven’t heard from her things are going okay, but I’m so worried I do wish she’d call. I don’t wanna call her in case she’s still dealing with it, the last things she needs in that case is a pest.

The kidlet and I went to the pharmacy today, I had to get some OTC stuff for myself, I have an infection and I don’t want to pay for the dr so I’m trying the do it yourself method. I told him he could get a candy bar OR bubbles and he chose bubbles oddly enough.

I filled out paperwork today, looked for jobs, hugged on my son and told him all the reasons I love him, and only seen my husband for about 10 mins today. He starts a second job tomorrow night waiting tables. He’s doing a print making job right now part time in hopes that it turns permanent.

I haven’t eaten a thing since I have woken up, I just have no desire to eat today, I’ve been drinking everything we have tho, water, soda ect ect. I’m so thirsty. There was ALOT of jobs online today and I applied to the ones in my pay range. I know I shouldn’t be picky but I’m too old to work for less then I know I’m worth.

Yesterday I took my son to a class called “Make a Splash with Music” it was free at the library. He got to make art while listening to Louis Armstrong music because yesterday would have been Louis Armstrongs music. He broke my heart and made me feel like SUCH a loser, not that it’s his fault he was just being totally honest. Since we can no longer afford daycare which we referred to as school we have been telling him he’s on summer vacation. He REALLY misses it tho….talks about it constantly. He’s potty trained now tho and I’m happy for that and I know it’s cuz with my “time off” I had time to devote my whole day to it one day. Anyways I’m getting off the point. Yesterday he met a little boy and they were the same age. They had a conversation and it went like this…Little Kid: My name is…My Kid: my name is Dakota. Kid: I go to preschool now. My kid: We’re on summer vacation.

I almost started to cry cuz I feel SO guilty I took that new found social life away from him

Exercise helps. I’m going to exercise again everyday like I used to. I did it yesterday and I was in high spirits all day. I’ve been having MAJOR issues sleeping lately, not helped by the fact that I just got an infection, blah! So last night I slept on the couch, stayed up late watching degrassi.

Well I’m gonna go call my bf…maybe not tho. I’m really worried about her.

My sister in law who lives right across the street from her called me the other night to see if I had heard the news and if I was asked to write a letter on Jess’s behalf, I said yes and that I had done it the same day and sent it out the same day. My SIL actually asked me if I could READ MINE TO HER, and help her write hers. I told her to ask my brother cuz he’s a good writer (the love of writing must run in the Cook family) she said he doesn’t want to get involved. I didn’t even ask my brother is just as moody as I am and was probably just asked to help at the wrong day wrong time.

Another thing that has me going hmmmm lately is that my internet hating brother lyndon has been emailing me back and forth for the last 3 days. He also gave me a NEW phone number and told me to call him. I hope him and his g/f are okay? Maybe I’m obsessing too much, but I’m gonna call him tomorrow night since Bill will be at work and I’ll probably be bored anyways.

Wow did I really just write that much?

Bye 4 Now

Melanie

Hello! It’s a normal day here at our house. Laundry is going, cleaning has been done (half assed), I’m on the laptop looking for jobs aka hitting refresh repeatedly on job search sites for which I’ve already submitted my resume to all available jobs that are within my pay expectations and qualifications. Spongebob Squarepants is on in the background and the kidlet is on the loveseat enjoying it.

So much has gone on since I last posted. The kidlet is so close to being FULLY potty trained. The hubster found a part time job! I had a temp position that only lasted one week unfortunately. I’ve become addicted to the show Degrassi, I’ve been reading everything I can get my hands on about bi-polar, depression and anxiety since unemployment is a major trigger for these things in my life.

One of my best friends has been going thru absolute BULLSHIT and I had to write a letter on her behalf. I won’t go into detail because it’s not my story to tell, but rest assured it is BULLSHIT, and I wish I could do more then just write a letter.

I’m in such a negative mood lately, I’m sure my haters are loving that, I know I have them, I know they read my blog, facebook and twitter are small places and I can’t be everyones favorite person. I want to be happy. I used to be able to fake it til I made it, I could get up and decide to be happy and I’d end up motivated and energized, not anymore.

I need to get my groove back, I’m working on some things but nothing lately seems to fall into place. What happened to everything happens for a reason? Was coming to STL a mistake? Oh! Also I got into a verbal altercation with my mother in law, and we haven’t been going over there as much as we did when we first moved into town. I talked to my step mother in law, my hubby’s dad’s wife…she is on my side and said the things I said were not out of line in any way.

The kidlet wants to bring his books back to the library today, but I don’t feel like going there. I feel like I even suck as a parent lately. I really need to figure out what is going on with me, but we have no more health insurance. We went from living comfortably to living in fear of homelessness. Okay I’m being a drama queen, I have too many people who care about me and my lil family for homelessness to ever happen, but WTF we were living a comfortable life, now eh…

I haven’t been writing, other then the letter for my friend, I’ve been searching for jobs, watching too much TV/DVDs cleaning,reading and just basically exsisting. I think I’ll be okay, I’m trying to make it a point to be as positive as I can and keep my son in the dark about how we both feel which is pretty loserish and hopeless.

Something is wrong with my DVR, as 2 episodes of my son’s favorite show spongebob squarepants have just been 30 mins of blank screen…hmmm same thing with yo gabba gabba. The kidlet is now yelling at me because I made his toyroom messy, I said “kid it’s a toyroom it can be messy” he’s like “why can’t the house be messy”  I’m like “cuz it’s a house” good enough answer for him he went back upstairs.

I am now convinced our cable has been shut off or something because nothing is working. There is no storming of any kind today…what would hunter S Thompson do? He’d write. But he’d write about the state of the world today,he’d be more then a little pissed off about this oil spill situation. See that’s another thing I keep thinking things like the planet is in danger, serious bad danger and we don’t have time to fix it. It’s the OCD in me. Everything is just on super maximun overload in my brain lately.

Yeah something is wrong with the dvr, there I fixed it. I’m a genius! Oh the other day I tried “Lancome’s All done up” lipstick, pretty, kinda purple/maroonish. It’s a tube that I never tried because when I first got it my son got into my make up spun the lipstick up and out and I happened to look at him and he wanted to act like he didn’t do anything wrong and put the cap on! Totally smooshing the lipstick. But I kept it and didn’t lose my temper on him. He was smaller and just too cute back then for me to get mad over something like that.

My anniversary is coming up this month! My marriage is still strong, stressed right now but strong. And I’ll end on that cuz it’s a happy note. Sorry for being sort of all over the place, my mind is all over the place, I wish there was a job for that. Or that I could make money writing this blog. Until I figure either of those things out or someone contacts me from the resume’s I’ve sent I will remain semi blah.

Melanie

Hello Peeps!

Today I’m trying to be happy, since I last posted ALOT has happened. The hubster and I both lost our jobs and have both been applying everywhere under the sun. I found a part time job in an office setting, but it didn’t last more then a week so now I’m just doing everything I can to find something new and full time. I have registered at a temporary agency in hopes they can help me find employment, and have been looking at all the job sites online.

The hubster already has 3 prospects and is at work right now at a part time job, he has the ability to find work ast and that’s because he has awesome credentials and a degree. I’m taking a short break from the employment search to blog. I have applied for 13 different jobs today so far and I keep hitting refresh on the job search engines just in case.

I’m doing laundry, I need to clean the house but i don’t feel like it today so I will wait until later in the day around 1-ish. I have ALOT to do I have to return a wii game to the library so at some point Dakota and I will be doing that.It’s raining did I already say that? if not it is and that puts me in a bad/sad mood.

So the real reason for this post is to let everyone who reads know that Mary J Blige is the savior to my depressed moods. Her music lets me know life IS tough, but if we didn’t have to deal with tough things we would never appreciate when ease comes out way. She also makes me wish I knew her.

If I met her I would ask her for fashion and makeup advice, and tell her how much her music makes me inspired. Talking about her makes me in a better mood so goal accomplished. If you don’t know of her I suggest you give her a listen, she has a bunch of videos on YouTube. Her music is about life, love, lessons and realness.

I love her and hope to meet her someday.

My son is finally potty trained, well not fully he still sleeps in a pullup but he’s been wearing underwear full time during the day. Sorry I’m so scatterbrained. Sorry I don’t feel up to blogging lately. I promise when life starts to look up I’ll be back. I don’t like to blog when I’m in this kinda funk, I feel like a killjoy. So if you have any advice or motivation tips please feel free to leave me a comment.

MzMelanie

Haven’t had much time to update! Been busy with getting our house in order and getting settled into our new setting. Today is my day off from work, which is going fine, but I’d rather spend it resting then blogging. Sorry readers you’ll have to wait for me to restore my motivation for a better more content filled post. I suck. I just wanted to let you know I’m alive.
Melanie