The problem is I’m so bored I almost have to clean I feel guilty sitting around watching netflix, maybe I’ll take a nap.

I’m on new medication now and it’s making me kind of drowsy. I need to start podcasting again. I really want to but who knows what will happen. My son doesn’t even want to watch netflix with me.

Tomorrow I have to go sign Dakota up for Kindergarden so that should be interesting. No more for today I have nothing left to say. I hope all of you out there in cyber land are having a GREAT day no headaches and no non motivation like over here.

Melanie

Today we are spending the day inside, I took Dakota to the library and we got 5 spongebob movies and 1 handy manny which is what we are watching now. I can’t wait til the mail gets here. I’m supposed to enroll Dakota in kindergarden in 2 days so that’s exciting.

The only shitty thing about library videos especially kids ones is that they skip alot. I HATE it, it makes me AND D mad.

I’ve started journaling in a notebook the old fashioned way, but it’s theraputic so I’m going to continue to do it and read alot. I have tons of stuff to do to keep my mind and hands busy. Wish me luck and keep me in your prayers tho quitting is hard.

I need to call Andrea and see when she wants to get together with Douglas. I think I’ll put that as something to do tomorrow give her a call. I know she’s gonna wanna be the host but I am hoping she’ll come over here instead. We’ll see.

We are listening to Michael Jackson’s Thriller. I love music and it distracts me from life and the fact that I can’t smoke. Plus Dakota will dance with me or watch me and laugh, oh well!

My toe itches. I guess I should blog later today I’m off to play on facebook maybe try and call Ronnie back. Oh actually I’m going to go to a nic A phone meeting, there is one in 15 mins. I am going to have to claim and not share because Dakota is here with me alone and I can’t share with him cuz there is no telling if he’ll be loud of not so I’ll just claim my seat and listen.

This kicking butts is kicking my butt but I will make it thru. I’m sick of hiding it from my husband and making my son hide it as well. Shame on me. I am pretty stupid, but I’m done doing it so I don’t have to worry about all that dumb shit anymore.

Well 10 mins til the meeting then I’ll go play on facebook. See you there. IF you are my facebook friend.

It’s kind of like exercising once you stop you find it hard to get back on track. At least for me. I’m thinking of getting rid of my facebook. I don’t know what I will do without it but I might get rid of it.

Does anyone still read this thing? let me know so if you do I can start keeping it updated again.

Melanie

D is in his bedroom playing Grand Theft Auto.

So we are now starting a business, it is we can print on shirts, hoodies, cotton, Mugs, Water Bottles…ect. So head on over to moogamug.com get you something.

Like I said earlier my stomach is hurtin. But I still want to keep typing because I’m fighting the urge to eat something that won’t agree with me.

I’ve been awake since 5 am and I’m starting to feel tired but I don’t like to sleep unless D is sleeping too. Don’t ask me why I’m just that way.

Today we went to Shop N Save and bought bleach cuz I turned some of Bill’s whites to pink. I suck at being a housewife. I’m trying to keep the house looking clean but at the same time I slack off to do something like BLOG, omg. Whatever.

I got some toothpaste and milk for the kidlet, and some hot dogs and hot dog buns. I don’t know how much we have or don’t have to spend because I don’t do the finances in this house.

Also my child has been obsessed with Smokey and the bandit.I don’t know why but after being introduced to it by my loving husband he’s been obsessed. So he’s always asking about Smokey and the bandit questions, and I have only seen bits and pieces of this show so I just tell him that and tell him he can ask his father when he gets home. Something to look forward too yanno?

I’m going back to school, I believe it is next week. My 1 class and 1 book are being paid for by my indian reservation. Go REZ!!!!! Seine River band for life!

I wish D would want a nap, but he doesn’t. I’m gonna go now and play on facebook and post this blog up there.

My neighbors got evicted so they have to be out on the 12th of Jan. I feel bad for Dottie but I don’t feel bad for her asshole company.

Dakota is puting his bare feet against my leg. I’ve quit smoking. Everyone is happy.

I’m going to try and blog more but I have school coming up soon. Tomorrow we pick up Bill from the airport. I have to let the dogs in. My older dog is worrying me that she’s getting old. Poor thing.

I’m sad, my son is growing up too fast.

Got to go watch cars2 have a mama Dakota night peaceful and snug

I miss certain people.

Today feels like it’s goin by too fast.

The kidlet is watching Cars 2 stuff.

I wish I could hold a newborn.

We are eating pot roast tonite for dinner.

boredom…

I just want my neighbor to choke on something. He is still harassing me CONSTANTLY. If I’m outside he makes it a point to be a “dick” to me. I called him that yesterday and he FREAKED out acted like a 12 year old whining and bitching.

I love my house.

I’m so glad my hubby will be back tonite. I’m letting my kid play grand theft auto, he doesn’t get it but he’s playing it. He keeps running in the livingroom telling me details about it.

It’s starting to get cold here. I miss NC more and more…why did we ever leave? Oh right Bill’s new job. What a bullshit part of life.

I’ve been drinking coffee I haven’t smoked in I don’t know how many days now, I lost count.

It seems like everyone is becoming new parents well not all but alot of my friends and fam are having babies. Makes me want one.

That’s it for now. I’m bored with writing, I will sign off by saying if you want to come smack my neighbor feel free. He’s still a fuckin asshole.